Exams Exams Exams

Hello all,

You may have noticed that I have been fairly inactive the past couple of weeks. This is because I have gone on exam leave and am currently taking my AS exams (some are internal exams due to the new linear system). I have been spending all my spare time revising and hoping for the best. Therefore, my blog will be somewhat quiet until my exams are over.

2 down, 7 to go!

The Decision to Quit

Roughly a month ago I published a post entitled Fearless within which I discussed my new job briefly. After one month of working with the company I have decided to quit.

This was a hard conclusion to come to, as, I do really enjoy my role on the sales team of the clothes store I work for. However, the negatives of this job did ultimately outweigh the positives. Primarily, the time it took to travel to each shift was far too inconvenient, it could take up to 40 minutes.

Although I have decided to end this opportunity after such a short period of time, the point I was trying to make in my original post still stands. Fear drove me on that day and I am so glad I decided to actually take up the opportunity and it not work than to pass it by and regret it.

Thank you for reading x

Ooh one more thing, please check out my post on Anthony Nolan, it is such an important cause and well worth a look into

My Mask

“What they don’t know won’t hurt them” – ha! Too many times have I heard this said about a situation. Masking the truth is something that happens much to frequently in my life. Maybe it’s what comes with being at an all-girls’ school – lot’s of gossiping, rumours, and secrets. Maybe it’s each person using their personal mask and creating a hyperbolic mask from it.

I mask the truth more than I care to admit. I’m not a liar, I merely withhold information when it is not needed. Maybe you consider this lying, maybe you don’t…but I don’t. This is by no means me saying that masking the truth is good. Often, it can actually be worse than being upfront.

My personal mask is that of hiding my stress and worries. I worry about making others worry over my stress so I don’t tell them which then causes me more stress – it’s an endless cycle, I know. As much as I want to let people know why or even that I’m feeling stressed, I  often keep it in in order to save them from worry. Of course, the times I have informed someone, I have instantly felt ten thousand times better for getting it off my chest.

This is the reason I have become a mentor at school, so that students can talk to me about their worries and feel better for getting it off their chest, let alone the feelings when we manage to find an effective solution.

Thank you for reading

x

 

A Letter To Myself (Continued)

Hello again!

After last night’s post I’ve been feeling very positive yet nostalgic and was looking through some old documents on my computer. Over the summer I began writing some poetry and found one entitled Letter To Myself and thought I’d share it with you all to help you get to know me in a way. I’m not sure what inspired me to write this at the time but I can say I still feel the same way now. Please let me know what you think and maybe I’ll share some more poems in the near future.

Dear me,
Be confident in everything you do,
Never restrict yourself.
Always look at the best in people,
And place everything into perspective.
Don’t be afraid to ask for help,
No matter how trivial the issue.
And most importantly,
Never forget to tell those you love,
What they really mean to you.

Thank you for reading x

A Letter To Myself – 1 Year From Now

Hi Debbi,

 Firstly, good luck in your exams, I know you’ll be wanting to hear that.

Secondly, I know that, like most years, you’ll think the previous school-year was terrible, I’m going to remind you why it wasn’t…

You had (and hopefully still have) the most amazing group of friends. You knew you could trust them with anything and they were always there for you. You were also a really good friend back to them. I hope they’re still there and that the group has grown to include other people. But, if it hasn’t, don’t worry, it’s quality not quantity. 

You loved your new job. Yes, having a 6-day week seemed like a lot, but everyone was super nice and you always had a smile on your face. You were happy in your role, and lucky to find this place for your first job.

You were generally a very happy person. Remember when you were told you could basically see the sunlight shining from your eyes at 7:45 in the morning? That was a comment from a friend you had only just met, one of your best friends. I hope they are still in your life, they’ve made a big difference.

Now, a few goals I hope we’ll have achieved by the time you’re reading this. You’ll probably laugh at them but this is what you wanted…

Firstly, I hope we’ve become healthier. That’s never been our strong point, has it? But we’re starting to get there right now and I really hope we’ve continued it.

Secondly, I hope we’ve met lots of new people. We’ve spent too long keeping ourselves shut away, and have only really started to make new friends this year. All of these new people have made a big impact (some not so great but still) on our lives and we’d be such a different person without them. 

Thirdly, I hope we’ve stayed happy. This has been your best school-year and I hope your final year was/is even better. 

That’s it Debbi

Hello reader,
Today’s post was a bit more personal, maybe you learnt something about me from it? I have always enjoyed reading past diary entries to remember what my life was like at a certain time, and that is partially what this blog is for, but I’ve never aimed something specifically for me to read in the future, hence this post. Often I’ve seen people writing to their younger self and I considered that but I thought I’d much prefer to read this back in a year and reflect on the year gone by.
If you enjoyed reading this, why not give it a go? I’d love to read what you’d like to remind your future self about.
Speak soon x

Meditation

For just over a year now I’ve been a fan of meditation. It began when I was having cognitive behaviour therapy and meditation was recommended. I downloaded an app called stop, breathe, think that tailors meditations to suit your needs and I found that each day it would really help to make me feel calm and at peace.

More recently, I have been struggling to sleep and decided to try some sleep meditation at bedtime to help me drift into a peaceful slumber. I scoured YouTube to find a guided meditation that suited me and found the perfect one that I’d like to share with you all.

GUIDED SLEEP MEDITATION TALKDOWN – Insomnia – Relaxation is a 29-minute long guided meditation by TheHonestGuys. I’ve been using this nightly for the past couple of weeks and have only made it to the end once because it is that relaxing. In the comments section others say similar so it is clear this works for many people. If you are struggling to sleep, I would highly recommend this as it had completely changed my sleep patterns. Previously I was simply meditating to delta waves music but found that I would get to used to the music and would need to switch it up every couple of days to be able to actually sleep.

TheHonestGuys make many guided meditation videos that I intend to check out when I need them and I’ll be sure to let you all know how they work out.

That’s it for today folks, do you like to meditate? If so, is there anything you would recommend I check out?

Anthony Nolan

Recently I received a very important letter, it contained my Anthony Nolan donor card.

If you are unaware of who Anthony Nolan are, here is a brief description from their website:

Anthony Nolan is a charity that saves the lives of people with blood cancer by matching remarkable people willing to donate their bone marrow (or stem cells) to patients in desperate need of a transplant. We also do vital research to make stem cell transplants as successful as possible.

Anyone in good health, aged between 16 and 30 can join their register, where they will stay until they are 60. All that is needed is a saliva sample (they provide you with a kit) and they’ll be added to the database. Each time someone needs a donor, this database is searched to find a match.

Unfortunately, even with half a million people on the register, there is still not a match for everyone who needs a donor. This is where you can help; if you are aged between 16 and 30 and interested in becoming a donor, head on over to their website to find out more. If you do not fall within this age bracket, you can still help; it cost £60 for them to sign someone up to the register so they are in constant need of support. Furthermore, simply raising awareness of the charity can inspire more people to sign up and become potential life-savers.

Thank you for reading and if you would like to find out more about the charity click here to go over to their website.